I mean...a long, long time.
I just came here to say I'm 28...I have a job with a very, very prestigious title...but I still feel so empty.
I told my mom today that I don't want to live an ordinary life - I'm a grown up but I'm still so lost. I just don't know what I want to do. My dad told me I should do whatever makes me happy.
I don't know what will make me happy. Nothing will make me happy. I wish there was an answer key. What do I want to do? Who am I? What will make me happy? How can I be happy?
My depression/anxiety is getting worse and worse. I don't know what else to do at this point. If I'm not in some sort of pit of despair, I'm grinding my teeth and fidgeting. If I'm not tearing my hair out in anxiety, I'm breaking down in a sudden fit of tears.
I can't stand myself.